But why is that though? Being single isn't embarrassing. At least it shouldn't be.
I am happily single. Single and loving it! There are so many things you can do while your single that you just can't do while your in a relationship. And let me just tell you, I'm 18. So I have the rest of my life to fall in love with that boy. I don't want to rush it. God has a plan for me anyway, and I know that His plan is best, so why feel sad and down and worthless?
A while ago I posted about this very thing. (Click here). About how 18 is not a time that I should be worrying about relationships. (Honestly I think 18 is too young). I should be focusing on my studying, and work situations, and friends! My biggest fret right now is what I'm going to be majoring in. Oy. You can read about that dilemma in my About Me section.
But boys? Mmm, nah. They're just not worth it. I remember when I was 14 and in eighth grade. I had this HUGE crush on this boy. He had a crush on me. Let's just say...it was awkward. I was so young. I didn't know what to do with all my emotions. This "relationship", if you can call it that, lasted for a couple years but even now I wonder why I even put myself through it. He's still a good friend of mine, but after our little "fling" I always felt awkward around him. We shouldn't have pushed anything. We were too young. Our emotions were pretty much flying wild around us nothing ever meshed.
He was the only boy I've ever liked, and, wait no, that's not true. I've liked plenty of other guys, but he was the only boy that I was ever "in a relationship" with. Because I felt that I was too young. Sure I was 14 (which is SOOO too young) but I don't think 18 is much better.
So until God decides that I'm at the right spot in life, I'm going to wait. And I'm going to wait with a smile on my face and patience in my heart. Because the only two men in my life are my dad and Jesus Christ, and they are all I need for now.
~Morgan~
