Today I picked my sisters up from school for my mom because she had to go to a meeting. So I picked them up and we drove over to Subway to get supper before they had to go to youth group. After we ate we went next door to Espresso Bay and sat in there so they could do their homework.
Oh my goodness.
I love coffee! I love everything about it! I love the smell, I love the taste, I love the zing that caffeinated coffee gives you...needless to say...I love coffee shops!
But the sad thing was, I didn't have any money for coffee. It was horrible! There I was, in one of my favorite places surrounded by one of my favorites things, and I couldn't partake in the delicious goodness! It was like torture! The whole time we were there I kept asking myself why I would put myself through all that. Well, okay, it wasn't all that terrible. At least I could enjoy the smell!
Ok, so food for thought. Today I was reading my bible and literally the first thing I read is Song of Songs 2:7, "Daughters of Jerusalem, I charge you by the gazelles and by the does of the field: Do not arouse or awaken love until it so desires." Wow. God is so speaking to me through that verse.
Lately I've been feeling a little sad because I'm not dating anyone. It seems that almost everyone I know is either in a serious relationship or is getting engaged! Don't get me wrong, I'm thrilled for them, but I would like the feel that way too.
But this weekend I spent a ton of time with an AMAZING friend and we happened to talk about this subject. I had previously made a deal with God that I wouldn't be bothered, or at least try not to be bothered, by all the relationships around me because I know that God has someone special in mind for me. But talking to my friend this weekend really made me glad that I had made that decision because obviously now is not the right time, because if it was...well...I would be in a relationship, obviously.
There was something she said though that made me go, "Woah, that is so true." She said, "I'm only 18." Yeah, I know, not exactly a "hold the phone!" kind of statement, but for me, it was like, oh my goodness, you are so right. I am only 18. I have years of singleness that I can use for God and myself that I wouldn't have if I'm in a dating relationship. Sure, it would be nice to have someone like that I would be able to talk to and rely on and have to comfort me when I'm going through a difficult situation, but right now I believe God has me single so that I will learn to rely on Him and allow Him to comfort me in those difficult situations. And when the time is right, He will place in my life the perfect man for me. In the meantime I just need to learn to trust Him and to let Him do His thing. God knows what is best for me, and I am thankful for that, because there is no way that I do!
